Positive or Negative?

We got the results back from Chloe's stroke work-up genetic tests. They were all negative. She did not have a stroke in utero.

That's a positive thing, right?

I don't mean to be whiny, but I was a little disappointed. I wanted an answer. I wanted to know why Chloe has medical issues. I wanted to know for sure. I didn't want to keep wondering about it every day. If we knew that there was a genetic pre-cursor that caused her blood to have hypercoagulability, then I could stop blaming myself for maybe doing something wrong. AND the fix would be easy -- just take aspirin every day next time I'm pregnant.

Now we're back to square one with lots of questions and few answers.

I was feeling pretty negative about it all week, after getting the call last Friday. At the end of the day, though, it really is up to me if I keep feeling negative or I find the positive and focus on that.

Thankfully, I've been able to snap myself out of it and trust in the Lord. I know Chloe chose this life for herself and that she is a blessing to me. It is an honor to be her mother because she brings such a special spirit into our lives and is a constant reminder of what truly matters in life. I trust that the answers will come if we need them to progress. In the meantime, I have a renewed spirit to get Chloe progressing with her physical abilities. I think withdrawing from early intervention spurred me to take a greater responsibility. Instead of depending on the monthly visits, I'm doing more research, more exercises, more stretches, more swimming, more swinging, better eating habits, etc, etc. I also just have to remember that it is our LOVE that will truly help her succeed. Love NEVER fails.....



Although ABM would be my therapy of choice, I have decided to try another whirl at physical therapy, but this therapist is NDT certified (neuro development treatment) to work specifically with children who neurologic issues, such as cerebral palsy. We had our first visit this week, and are going to start going weekly....


She is such a cute lady and Chloe really likes her. I missed it by a millisecond, but she had Chloe sitting up without assistance for 10 second increments. Chloe was supporting herself with her arms and just loving it! I didn't even think to get my camera out because I was just enjoying watching her sooooo much! By the time I remembered to grab the camera and document Chloe's amazing achievement, she was tuckered out. You can kind of get the idea though!

We're also trying another alternative treatment. This weekend we're driving to see an astrophysicist in Montana, who tests energy fields around the body, then does something to correct the energy. He also developed a special water for NASA that he recommends, but doesn't require.

Now before you write me off as a complete lunatic for even considering this treatment, just know that I have met a young man with CP who could only roll over when he went to see this guy, then was sitting up three days later. It's now been six months and he's doing lots of amazing things, including standing without assistance and walking with assistance. If I hadn't met this boy and saw his dramatic improvement in person, I may not have believed it, so if you don't believe, I get it.

Also, the treatment is free if you can get to him. So I know he's not trying to scam us out of money. Basically, there's nothing to lose except a road trip to Montana.... and we get to see my brother's family, so we're truly out nothing! I'll let you know how it goes. I feel really positive about it, anyway.